The First Mourning

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In researching the emotional effects of betrayal, I am not coming across references or analogies to mourning but that is primarily what I have been feeling yesterday & today. The sudden loss of a loved one. The total and irrevocable absense of him from my life. Never again to hear his voice, never again to walk hand in hand along the ocean. Never again the morning phone call. Never again a simple meal together. Perhaps this sensation of mourning is so extreme for me because I already had lost him for 18 years in my life. There was a sense of redemption in our reunion that was about life, rebirth, forgiveness, the future, healing. To have all that evaporate in an instant!

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